Sunny, warm, colourful, like a holiday. I’ve seen the unknown smiles, I felt the unknown arms surrounding me, the hugs, the hearts beating for me. Unseen friends, far away lover, and yet so close… A far away thought, or a phone call from an unexpected friend means more than nicely wrapped gifts… I received heart gifts….
But let me start from the beginning. Early morning when I woke up and looked outside my window and I saw a very bright light, sign that the sun was really rising! For me! I had no special wish, so the first minutes of morning surprised me. Then the thought came to my mind… let’s make this day special, let’s do something different, let the day surprise you. You just be the special guest of this day! What a great day! I looked in the mirror… I needed some adjustments. A nice shower would refresh me, a new hairstyle and something trendy… Great! Let’s do it! Spent some tome on the first morning calls, read my messages on the internet, and ready to get out of the door and do something that I havend done before and walk in places I haven’t been for quite a time. I grabbed my camera, ready for My Late October shots, grabed my old CD player ready to absorb every word of celebration of this day! Perfect Day, How Great is Our God, How Excellent is Thy Name etc. I’ve never walked on the street with my headphone on my ears…. LISTENING.
How is it to walk on the streets, on your birthday, alone, all by yourself, feeling happy, satisfied? No friends around, no lover around, no one you know… Quite an experience! A great one! Loved it!
How was it
Late October
Tomorrow is my birthday. What shall I do tomorrow? Something special something new, or memorable… I would prefer to have a day of inspiration. I would dedicate this day to LIFE. To celebrate life. There are many ways of doing it. Cheering and spending time with friends! Remembering old times when we used to…. I don’t want to recall the past. Interestingly, my verse for this year was a tough one. It was about friends. Just read Jeremiah 9:4. You will be shocked! Well, people are your enemies, people are your friends, people are your fans, people are the ones who hate you. I don’t fell the need of people. They disappoint me too much. J Like I would be perfect! No, no at all, but I just try so hard to keep the values up, to bring back the good old etiquettes, when people would say “May I have the honor of sitting beside you?” don’t get me wrong! I’m not saying that those years were better, that those people were different. Well, thy were, from a certain point of view. We have the chance of a rich world history. So many trhings happened before we came, and yet, so little we learn. Where is that saying – learn from other’s mistakes? No, we do not intend to learn. Our nature is wicked, and I is to painful to be aware of it! Tat’s why maybe it is a lot more easier for those who are ignoring the truth or they refuse to admit it. It is easier now… but later, it will be harsh. Do we try to run from all the thngs that happened before us? So many people were concentrated on building a Golden Society, everyone using its evil ways, thinking that it would work. But in the end it turned to be fatal… Oh how true it is that good intentions without knowledge are fatal. My mind is like a swirl sometimes… funny. We talk so much these days. Way too much. If we do something with our hands, we talk about it for days! This is the époque I live in. Do I fit in? No, quite a bit. Would I choose to live in another time? No, quite a bit. I’m in the right place at the right time. Maybe my “square” is mobile ad not very well defined, but I will be in the right place. No, I’m not a chess figurine, but I believe in God’s good decisions.
What I want for my birthday? Well, maybe a des1k lamp, a car, a home, a job, a child? Which would best fit for a birthday present? Sometimes it is to difficult to choose, not only for others but for myself as well. This time I chose a desk lamp. It’s nice. I like it, although it shines too bright on my keyboard and can’t see the letters very well J. Will I remember my birthday? Of course. I look out the window; I see the red yellow and green leaves, the beauty that the nature painted before my eyes, the cold the October rain, or the fog, or gentle touch of the sun. It is never the same. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I hate it. But I like this day, though.
It’s me, here, 2007, at 28 years old and 365 days and 11 hours. Young if I were to compare myself wit my 87year old grandma and old if I were to compare myself to a 18 year old. But young in spirit, young because youth is not defined by your skin. The skin is such a fragile and expensive material!!! J Yet it is our cover, an we do need to take care of it. Tomorrow I’ll be 29, an age with no resonance. It doesn’t tell me anything. It’s like an empty barrel, when you hit it, no sound.
